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Jul. 3rd, 2007 @ 12:03 pm
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No way. I haven't been here since December. It's not that hard to believe though, is it? I don't have a computer, and who the hell reads this anymore anyway? No one. But, here I am. Still alive. I promise. I'm going to be starting another year at Luther. Yup. Made it through my first year in college, fancy that. And it was a good year, I'd like to think. And this year will be even better, y'all. |
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Dec. 31st, 2006 @ 05:51 pm
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Happy New Year. Nick won't be here for two damn hours. THANKS A LOT SNOW!!! Ugh. |
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I saw you at the grocery store today. And after 1 1/2 years together, neither of us can say hello. Isn't that rediculous? No matter how much I wanted to smile at you and say hi, I couldn't. So... I didn't. My heart caught in my throat when I noticed you, you know. And it hurt to see you were happy.
I realized that maybe I have strong trust issues. Because I don't want him to drink. Incase he does something stupid with someone. Or talks stupid. Or maybe it's jealousy that he is having fun while I'm not there. Or maybe I hate myself for everything that I've done. Or maybe I just can't live with myself. Or maybe I hate alcohol so much that it makes me hate people when they decide to drink it. Or maybe it's because it's illegal. Or maybe I just need to go back to Luther because I have TOO MANY DAMN emotions here. And Will always finds a way to make me cry every time I am here. Or alone. I NEED TO GO BACK. It is driving me nuts to be here. |
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Dec. 1st, 2006 @ 03:13 am
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hi everyone. still here. in college. single. reconsidering music. photography? english? lord, i dont know. but i love my friends . they keep me happy. maggie, nick, elliott, liz...the whole gang. will and i still talk. and see each other once in a while. i still love him. it wont change. |
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Aug. 28th, 2006 @ 07:23 pm
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Hi all. I'm in college. It is okay. i'm still getting used to the fact that I can't see Will and my family constantly. I get lonley sometimes. But I am hoping classes will make me feel a lot better. I do like the thought of being a college girl though. All though it seems like everone here drinks and parties. (Which isn't me at all). But oh well. We have some sort of comedy thing tonight in the center of life and faith (you have to remember that it is a private school and it's name is in fact LUTHER). :) I'm hoping to get more spiritual though. My roomates are great. Rose is very pretty and talented. She plays the piano so beautifully. And Beth is bubbly and sweet. She's a partier, I can tell. ;) And theres little me...trying to fit in. Anyway. There is a beautiful view from this building. This is the Main Building...its cool. It has a balcony that overlooks the woods, there are so many trees. Its so calm here. No trouble. But I miss home. I can't wait until October. But, i should get going. I will try to come here more often. It's nice being out of the dorm anyway. :) I miss MN!Current Mood:  homesick |
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I am bored out of my mind. This week has sucked beyond the normal amount of sucking. I think its because I had so much fun the past two weeks that everything seems so dull now. I have exactly a month until I am away from here. This shithole. I'm sick of EVERYTHING! I am hoping I feel a lot better when I move. I think I will because it will be new and exciting.
The Muse concert is today and it sucks that I can't go. I half expected my brother to buy us tickets to surprise me but that never happens.
I think I woke up on the wrong side of the bed because I just woke up crabby. And little things make me sick. I am trying to think of things to do, you know? So I don't keep feeling like this but I can't think of anything. I asked my mom if we could just go look up at the mall to take my mind off of things but she said no. Why? I don't know. She's lazy or something. I was thinking about reading but that won't do any good because all I will do is think about other things while I read. Then I thought about going out to tan but I don't want to anymore. I think I am depressed. It runs in my family. I just need someone to talk to without worrying about what I say. I don't have that anymore.
God! I'm so damn depressed! Jeez. ANYWAY!
I will try to think of happy things. Like leaving in just a month! and maybe putting exclamation marks after things will make me happy! Lol. Wow! !!!!!! yay. I'm supposed to see Onni tomorrow, but I have voice lessons at 12:30 so I may have to reschedule. Yeah. I should go tell her that. Okay, I found something to keep me busy for 5 minutes!
Shit, what should I do??!
Jul. 26th, 2006 @ 12:58 pm
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I love opera camp, man! Its so fun. I've met some great, funny people. The music is a bit difficult though.
My best friend from about 9 years ago sent me a letter today. We haven't talked for about 3 years. We used to always write to each other. I can't believe she finally wrote me. She looks so different, I saw her on myspace. Wow. She's like a goth pinup girl now! But she said she really misses me. :( She moved to California about 9 years ago. It sucked.
Well thats all! YOU SHOULD ALL SEE MY PERFORMANCE THIS FRIDAY AT 3 OR 7!!! AT THE MINNESOTA OPERA COMPANY. I'll be with KYLON. Love love love!
Jul. 14th, 2006 @ 07:56 pm
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Wow. I just read one of my memories. The one where I broke up with John. That's ironic because this morning I woke up from a horrible dream. Really, it was bad because it felt SO real. I hate those dreams. So, anyway, Will had cheated on me twice and I was crying and asking him why and stuff. Then, he was, like, trying to keep from smiling and he broke up with me! And I woke up and thought, "How could I have done that to John?" And I felt like the worst person in the world. I want to apologize to him but we haven't talked in almost a year and it would be kind of late for that, don't you think? I feel so terrible. I mean, how could anybody ever do that to a person? Jeez.
I am off to Luther in 2 months. I got a lot of money from my graduation party and I need to go out and buy college crap. I visit Luther this Friday with my Mom and I want to buy a shirt there so i can represent! Woot woot! I can't believe I am going to college. And a GOOD one at that! With my family history, you'd think it would be impossible or unimaginable. But, I did it. I will be the FIRST person in my family to be going to college right after high school. My mom is going this fall, and my brother is going to the CIA in New York to be a chef. My sister is going too. Sean is just entering high school this year. I hope he has fun, like I did. And I hope he meets a lot of great people.
I hope I do too! Love, love, love.
Jun. 20th, 2006 @ 12:21 pm
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May. 8th, 2006 @ 09:58 pm
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PROM WAS SO AMAZING! We danced almost all night and Will was gettin all freaky deaky on me! Yees, he can dance. Everyone loved my dress. Yay. Major cleVAGE going on though. Too bad we couldn't get a hotel room. That would have made the night PERFECT. Really. But, I still had a great time dancing to Grease lightnin' and Move Along. GOOD TIMES! I love you William. :D MWAA!
May. 7th, 2006 @ 01:57 pm
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How many windows do you have in your room?
1
What is the color of your walls?
white
Hardwood floor, tile, or carpet?
carpet
What size bed do you have?
twin
what does your comforter look like?
blue with white glow in the dark stars
Is your room big?
not anymore.
Is it clean?
no
Do you have the following in your room:
[ ] desk
[ ] more than 3 sources of light
[ ] phone
[x] chair
[x] book shelf
[ ] dresser
[x] TV
[ ] dvd player
[ ] vcr
[ ] playstation2
[ ] xbox
[ ] over 50 dvds
[ ] over 100 dvds
[ ] more dvds then you know what to do with
[x] CD player/stereo
[ ] more than 5 speakers
[ ] bean bag chair
[ ] computer/laptop
[x] posters
[x] painting(s)
[x] pictures
[ ]walk in closet
[ ] large mirror
[x] bed
[x] stuffed animal(s)
[ ] drumset
[ ] own bathroom
[x]clock
[x] clothes on the floor
[ ] guitar
[ ] lava lamp
[ ] smoke detector
[x] piano/keyboard
[ ] locking door
[ ] fridge
[ ] a blacklight
[x] something about your own country
[x] medals
[ ] trophies
[x] awards
[ ] water polo ball
[ ] soccer ball
[ ] volleyball
[ ]basketball
[ ] softball stuff
[ ] Tennis gear
[ ] track gear
[ ] frisbee
[ ] beach ball
[ ] football
[ ] lacrosse gear
[x] cds
[ ] surround sound
[ ] sofa
[ ] liquor
[ ] flag
[ ]stop sign
[ ] caution tape
[ ] paintball gun
[ ] airsoft gun
[x] calendar
[ ] Real Gun
[ ] Cigarettes
[ ] flashlight
NOW REPOST THIS AS "THE BEDROOM SURVEY"
May. 1st, 2006 @ 07:36 am
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I'm crying in the computer room with some other guy in here. FUCK YOU.
Apr. 25th, 2006 @ 07:41 pm
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Yay!!! I'm hangin out with Julie today!! I'm so esited. I spent the night at Will's twice this week. I had a great time with him. Its always fun spendin time with him. Love, love, love.
Apr. 8th, 2006 @ 12:22 pm
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I am going to do a video on the troops that have been killed in Iraq. I know it sounds cheesy and uh, kinda cliche, but I had a really good idea. And a good song to go with it.
I love this weather. All gloomy and rainy. It makes me feel the exact opposite of what it is supposed to make people feel: happy.
I am looking forward to college. I really was worried I'd end up not going. Why is it that people HATE high school when they are in it but then look forward to going to school for another 4 years or so? It's funny but thats how it works. Its sad to say, but I'm looking forward to getting away from all of my friends. Not my individual friends. But my friends as a whole. Together, they can all be ass munchers. But when I'm alone with, lets say, Julie, or Onni, or Amanda, or Jessi...they are sincere and actually good people. I'm not saying they are BAD people. Just not...the way they used to be. Nothing is the way it used to be.
Will and I are doing quite well. I am spending the night at his house on Monday and Thursday! Its so exciting. My mom is actually letting me.
But, I'm gonna go. Someone is talking to me...
Apr. 2nd, 2006 @ 11:45 am
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Will and I had a serious talk yesterday. I don't want to talk about what it was about, but just as soon as EVERYTHING was okay, he goes and DOESN'T tell me something. It wouldn't have even bothered me. Okay, so he hung out with Cailin, I seriously don't care but the fact that he doesn't tell me. Like it IS a bad thing. Jesus. He just can not stop worrying me.
Yesterday he was so sweet and everything too. :(
Whatever. I'm mad at him. Not you though, Cailin. I really am not jealous er anything. But...you get what I men???
Oh! I got my financial aid stuff yesterday for Luther. And I have about $24,000 for next year!! So...I have about $7,000 left to pay. Plus the loan which was $2,000. But I'm not sure I'll even have to pay that. I dunno. I will find out. Okay, buh bye.
Grrrrrrrrr.
Mar. 28th, 2006 @ 07:49 am
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Hello, all. I've been busy deciding where to go to college and I have finally made my choice. (Well, I kind of decided a while ago but...yeah...) I visited Luther yesterday. It took only 3 hours to get there and then I met a lady there and we talked about what I want to do at Luther and what I'm interested in. Then, Mikey and I had lunch, and then met Pete, my tour guide. He was attractive. ;) But Luther is so peaceful, I love it! Then afterward I met a choir director and he asked me to sing for him (because he insisted that I would sound better in person rather than on a cd). And he was amazed at my tonal memory. But I though it was SO funny because he played only 4 notes and they were all pretty easy, he played only 4 different sets. Man. Then I sang "Caro Mio Ben" and he liked that. And then he said, "Well, I am not supposed to tell you but since you have already been accepted here...I'm reccomending a big music scholarship for you." :) So. That's where I am off to this summer. Luther College.
When Mikey and I were driving down there we saw Amish people! They were so cool looking! They were riding in their horse drawn buggies. Oh, it was great. And no need to worry...there is a Subway right next to campus. So I am happy. Love, love, love...
Mar. 12th, 2006 @ 12:58 pm
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| Guilt | What is yours? | Explain yourself | | Culinary: | Lemon juice and popcorn |
Ever since I was 8 years old I haven't been able to stop eating it!! It's seriously addicting. |
| Literary: | "One Flew Over the Cuckoo's Nest" | It gave me bad dreams. No book has EVER given me ANY dreams! That's why I love it. | | Audiovisual: | America's Next Top Model | It looks so fun and I love seeing people want to be pretty. |
| Musical: | Oklahoma! | Man, I just want to be in that damn musical! |
| Celebrity: | Kevin Spacey | His monotony (i think that's how its spelled) thrills me. |
Now I tag:-
YOU!
to complete this same Quiz, Its HERE.
Feb. 19th, 2006 @ 02:53 pm
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I'm sorry but myspace is soo much better. I still love you though! Valentines day was fun. Cheesyness. Will is sweet though. We made a movie. Hahaha. I don't know how I could ever NOT love him. And he loves me soo very much. :) I'm lucky to have him. Mmmm and he's a good chef. I can't wait until we are older and we are still together.
There is a guy talking spanish in here and I totally almost understand him!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Feb. 15th, 2006 @ 07:11 pm
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I apologize to everyone about yeaterday after school. I just couldn't hold it in anymore. And everything just snowballed into things that were worse and worse. so, yeah...
I called my brother last night. I haven't talked to him in awhile. He was in New York but, uh, he was being bad. He started drinking again and weed and shit. So I was a bit upset with him. He told me that everyone around his age does it now and when I get to be about 25 I will see that almost everyone does it. And that wasn't the best thing to hear because he is supposed to be my ahem..."role model" to use that term loosely. So....yeah. Music Listening 2morrow thank the Lord because I feel PUMPED! And ready! Yeah! Go me ands Coua!!
Jan. 19th, 2006 @ 07:48 am
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